Just read my last post. and i can confidently say that things are a little better. better is a loose term though. because i THINK that things have gotten better, but it could be that im just getting used to the craziness. we havent been restricted in a long time though, so thats good. and I've earned the respect of a lot of people that it takes quite a bit to earn from. I think my Squad Comm is pretty happy with me, which is always a good thing.

and man am i glad its the weekend now. this past week was brutal academically. there were points where i was stressed more than ever. thats the thing this place does for you. it makes you realize that you can get through ANYTHING. I've completed tasks here that i would have never thought possible about a year ago. which is making me realize why a degree here is very valuable not only in the Air Force but in the civilian sector. People know that we can get things done, no matter how much of a mountain it will be to surpass. that gives you a lot of pride too. but even you dont see it in yourself till you leave here. because everyone except your classmates treats you pretty crappy. then you go out in the civilian world and you know why you do it from the smiles you get from random strangers as you pass by in uniform. sometimes i take it for granted and hate doing it, but its an honor to wear this uniform and i wouldnt have it any other way. and like i said in the last post, you have to relish in the small pleasures you encounter, and blow them up to be something not as important as they really are lol. but it will make you feel better about things if you can do that.

well its gettin late so im gonna end it for now. cant. wait.